The first step...
...is to admit that you have a problem. Hi. My name is Cerella and I'm what I like to call, for lack of a better term, a schizophrenic food addict. Confused? Please, let me explain.
I am overweight and have been for the vast majority of my life. I started dieting when I was in grade school and counting calories was the way I did it. Once I was in Junior High (I believe) or maybe even High School I started going to Weight Watchers. In between and since I have done soo many different diets that I can't even remember them all. Let's see...I've tried....
1. Counting Calories
2. Weight Watchers
3. Some diet where I seemed to always be eating a pita sandwich
4. Herbalife
5. Atkins
6. Fasting
7. Slim Fast
8. ??? I'm sure there are others, just can't remember
So, throughout my dieting life, the most successful way that I have lost weight is through Weight Watchers. ( I really am going to get to the point here, I swear! )
The thing that I love about WW is that you really can eat ANYTHING that you want, in moderation. However, if you want to get the most food for your points, you need to stick with artificial sweeteners, artificial butter, artificial syrup, artificial, artificial, ARTIFICIAL!!!
Most of the time when I'm not on a diet, I enjoy using real sugar, real butter and other NATURAL things. Aside from the fact that they taste soo darn good, I like the thought that I'm putting NON-MAN MADE PRODUCTS in my body. I know that I need to lose weight really bad, but the thought of going back on WW and eating the artificial stuff bums me out. I know that I could still do it and eat all natural but then I won't be able to eat as much food. Understand?
Okay, now to add even MORE complexity to this crazy dilemma, I am a huge, HUGE animal lover. I have been a member of Peta and other animal activist groups and have wanted to go vegetarian (ideally vegan) for a long time. Unfortunately, it hasn't happened for me yet. I sometimes go a length of time without meat either because I just don't crave it and other times because I'm soo wigged out that an animal had to be slaughtered to provide me with a particular meal. I imagine ( and have seen in Peta videos ) the fear and desperation in their eyes and it breaks my heart to the core.
Oh, you didn't think that the insanity was going to stop there did you? I have also been very interested in the gluten-free diet as well. There seems to be soo many benefits to this lifestyle of eating but I've never tried it and it just seems really hard.
NOW, can you see how I'm feeling just a wee bit schizo about this food situation?
4 reflections:
my friend, read the book "Skinny Bitch" and that'll do it for ya on the vegan train for at least a couple weeks. i even ordered the vegetarian starter kit after reading that book. i think i need to read it again. trust me on this one...
Ahh my favorite topic...the Love and Hate of food! Have you done the Cabbage Soup diet? I did it to lose my baby weight and it worked. It's pretty hard to get started, but nothing compared to the Master Cleanse diet! YIKES!
Enjoy life and try your best to be healthy, that's all a person can do :)
Tori
Oh my goodness girl!! I'm not even sure what to say. I do know that sometmes though...the more you focus on food the more you want to eat. I'm going to be thinking on this one...
Cerella,
I went ovo-lacto vegetarian for 6 years. SIX YEARS. I went that way for the same reason why you have considered it. If you ever do it, too, I'm rooting you on!! It's hard to give up meat but once you do, it's really pretty easy to stick with it. :) (Working at Burger King for 2 years really helped that, too. It made my disgusted to even see a hamburger ever again, let alone eat one! -- ha!)
Val
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